"Live a happy life while you are young." My motto for the year 2015. All my life I have been trying to do what everybody else wants me to do. I got to live a life full of eyes trying to find all the mistakes that I do. As time went on, I became immune with all these stuffs. I have come to realize that people will always have their own expectations. They will always try to control you and win over you. It now depends on yourself whether you let them or not.

As this year 2015 has started, I have made a lot of decisions both good and bad. I had tried my very first relationship and it did not really end well. Actually, it ended as early as I thought it would. Then, I gave time to people who courted me but then left me immediately-- everybody thought that i'm just as good as a fling.They don't really try to be serious with me.

I have decided to step up on my own. Tried doing things on my own without asking anyone about their opinions. It is not really easy but i gotta try it. I cannot live to anyone else's expectations anymore. I cannot remain under the shadows of the people around me. I have to stand up and let the world know that I can do something better--something worthwhile for everyone.

Truthfully, as of now I am very confused. I wanted to try and work using my real profession but still in dilemma because of financial constraints. However, I have come to realize that money can always be earned but our life is always spent. Now, the money that I am earning can never pay the life that I am wasting. I have been very busy making a living and most of the times forget to make a life. I am still trying to figure myself out on what I really want to do. Time will come that my mind will be open and I will see my future clearly.

For now, I gotta spend my life doing the things that I love and living it with full of joy.