Who Was It With? 

Someone I thought I was in love with.

When Did You Realize It was Love? 

I realized after he confessed that he loved me.

What Did It Feel Like? 

At first, it was everything anyone could ask for. He was romantic. He was cute, funny, and he just seemed like an all around good guy. My stomach knotted when I saw him and I'd sometimes get so nervous that I thought I'd be sick. Thankfully, I never was. But his charm definitely hooked me in. I felt comfortable around him. He was easy to be around. He confessed that he loved me before I admitted it to him. When I admitted it back, things were better than before. It was this way until I began to realize that not only did his charm work on me, it worked on other girls...

What Happened Next? 

I began to be really paranoid. He was texting other girls and hanging out with them more than he would hang out with me. Every time I brought up my suspicions, he'd get angry and tell me I have problems because I get jealous so easily. He really hurt me. Even physically sometimes, which he'd brush off by saying he was kidding. Even while he was acting funny, he'd still pressure me for 'action'. He was using me, thinking he could pressure me into 'action'. I knew it. But i loved him to much to let him go. He ended up not being able to deal with my 'jealousy issues' and broke up with me. He dumped me over a text while he was having a sleepover with another girl. I can certainly say I was devastated. Yet, after a week, I gave him another chance. I gave him probably six other chances after that too. He ended things with me every time for other girls up until the last time. I found out he liked another girl and I dumped him. I haven't regretted it since. I was tired of being treated like that. Since then, i've met someone that fully respects me and I love him to death.

Lessons Learned

• Nobody deserves to be treated like they're second place to everyone. Don't ever, ever take physical or any kind of abuse. Find someone who makes you feel like you're number one. Respect yourself also, and know what you deserve. It took me a while, but I finally figured it out also