The distance between the fingers I always wait for the filling from him.

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As a habit, every morning I wake up quickly grabbed the bedside phone message call where he got up to go to school and wished him a good day. Habits that have eaten into my life from the time is, the least, six months since you and I love each other so far. But this morning I hurried back holding the phone with trembling hands, thumbs tapping send that so difficult to reproduce. Clench my teeth and let the phone blanket, trying to close my eyes.

 

Bright light eyes, wake up, it was already 9 pm weekends as I allow myself to sleep a little more baking. Again and again grabbed the phone .. .. but I realized that he was mad at me. Come away. I will not do so. Breakfast and browse through facebook see what's new, I did not forget to browse through the pages you see anything or not. Suddenly the sound of children playing kids cheered as I remembered him. He also children so he is carefree laughter as we it. The moment I see him so cute how.

 

Absently think of the memories of the past six months ... the day I started '' saw '' he is only a rough game. So that or .. '' who lost the love of the other as the '' me and you officially have a relationship dating from here. My memories came rushing in his memory. Me eyes a lovely inner eyelid contain sadness at times I found contained the unusual bright. I remember slim pretty small, but I often called '' sauce iu ''. I remember the message of him goodnight. I remember the love that his responsibilities often say 'very windy worry that despite the decent warm' 'and the words so dear vk-ck adorable. And at the heart of the jacket together you and I played together as children go clam ngeu the same.

I remember him as much memory to remember water fish, such as leaf stems remember I remember I have to breathe every day. Standing nostalgia .. though I know you're still here, and I can see his presence. I remember the days warm hug cold wind loving gestures. Remember when he bother to me. I remember the time you always follow me when I'm drunk '' I do not drink sparingly wanh die '' smoke less alone ''. He did not forbid me anything because he knew I capital is the son of nowhere listen. '' You that I was spoiled rotten with you '' the bad boy but I will not let my people love to be spoiled and he knows it. You can only stop blaming me gently but my nature is so not change anything. Sometimes I'm heartless indifference against his interest, but I did not know that he was worried about what I know. Ego's a big boy so I always have to run after him and to me. Basically the things you are not appreciate until then lost to regret, I did so. Having had no respect and regret. Guilt that surrounded every soul.

I remember the day after the concert moon dance with me and he raised his face hun smoking blue sky, watching the stars. Straighten his legs, two pairs of shoes to the side by side a little. Only silence alone I felt his heart beating fast and my heart is throbbing when I put him on the lips first kiss. Round eyes looked at me and then he closed his eyes so sharp lovely daughter stars do it fast so alluring. Me too ... I remember, I remember those times driven him around the tiny town of laughter that one must look up. I remember I stroked his chin or babble like a cat '' cat bone wise .. 'cause I can not help feel. Then the time you finish studying hard for me this year and last level. I do not blame him so hard he goes, he insisted that he do, he's just worried about me busy playing forgetting his duty to do.

Think realistically I have not done anything for him at all, causing him to upset the entire nervous. I can not believe that I will bring joy for him to be. but in return I love you very much.

I saw in his eyes that day was a mixed one anxious fears. I'm sorry. I'd be sorry, I do not expect you to forgive me. I do not know why I should. The distance between the fingers I always wait for the filling from him. I'M SORRY