A continuation of my short tweet like post. This is the 3rd presentation I am working on. This time it was torn to shreds by my boss. Ok I'm not the best at presentations but what irks me is he told me to refer the presentation he edited. I started working on it getting positive feedback only to get the final powerpoint emailed to me. The final version was nothing like what I worked on maybe one picture I found on Google was included. Why wasn't I told that I was way off track and let me work on improving to meet your standards. Granted I didn't give that presentation but still felt like an idiot. I am working on a presentation I am supposed to give next week and the real feedback is starting to come which is making me very nervous for my upcoming presentation. Starting to doubt if I've really been of any value to this organization in the last few weeks. 

I keep getting new projects piled on my plate. When I try to follow up, sometimes no response. I am not very self motivated working alone from home. After reaching out to a few people I planted my seeds. I pray I did it correctly since this is the first time I am growing anything on my own. Growing up I helped my mom with the gardening so I have an idea what I need to do. Now I am responsible for volunteer engagement which is something I haven't been exposed to. I wonder if I could meet the volunteers who are in Hyderabad to work with them on developing projects. This kitchen garden seems to be making progress on the content side but it's 5 days after the deadline. I am the anchor and involving myself in the content side but I am no designer so feel useless to the IT guys. 

On the plus side if the gardening goes well, I will have fresh spinach, methi and coriander for cooking. Best news is the other staff who was in Hyderabad and just moved to Chennai will be in town on Tuesday. I pray it doesn't fall through like our previous attempts to meet up. Feeling like a useless failure. I feel like I spend my days doing nothing. Did a bit of research on pre schools fro Badri and since my computer keeps acting up it is slow progress on everything else. I've been documenting my kitchen garden. Need advice on how to bring up my concerns to my boss. I've kept trying to inquire on visa issues without luck.