I was very down an in grief, being the burden is the most struggling part of my life. I hope that someday one can realize my worth, all my life I’ve been into the shadows of all the cousins that I have, I am the slave of all. Anything they asked for me I risked it all but now I am nothing but a piece of crap that is ready to be putted into the garbage, seems like my expiration date has come. Today, I am into the mindset to stand on my own, not all the time you depend on someone and to anyone. Not all the things in life are achievable with the help of others but also you need to help yourself. Seems like you are into a parade of death when you are into a part that when you have all but you can spend nor enjoy because you are sanctioned and limited to the things that you are doing. The feeling that you are being treated as someone that who do not belong to them. For me I am contented for what I have and I did not want more but if God will give more why not. I also found out that jealousy will bring people down and a person in jealousy will do all their best to bring you down even if it is in a bad way. But of all the things that they wanted to me I am not into them, God only will decide to where they would be. I pray for their souls that god may forgive them for they do not know what they are doing.