That moment when you know you’ve done something different. Different as in morally compromised but not wrong. Different as in want to do it again but have to digest what just happened first. You’re not disappointed in yourself, not even shocked just slightly silenced by your most recent actions. It’s this silence that allows you to register all your emotions. As Ella’s cab raced down West Broadway her thoughts raced with it. She allowed her mind to travel back to where she had just been and it was in this split second that she knew what she wanted. Indifferent to the risks and aware of the complexity, Ella wanted more.