OK this is not really food for thought by I am on the hungry side.

I got into a fellowship program.

I moved to India.

My host organization has been wonderful.

I work from home

Little to no human interaction during the day

I had a smooth transition to Hyderabad and to India

Everything is an opportunity cost

Those who had stressful first days have roommates and work outside their home

I have the opposite

This is not a poem even though every sentence is on a new line

I do not have grievances against my program yet yes I did post my humble food for thought

There was an open forum for fellows

The content made on fellow uncomfortable, they complained to staff

I personally think that person should have addressed the rest of the fellows before going to the staff

I have my personal opinions about the staff and how this program is run from the viewpoint of a fellow

If I am in a group setting I like to know who else has issues and how everyone is doing

This tendency to address things indirectly has been addressed

Now I must air my concerns to the party directly

I do not really have any complaints hence I did not contact staff

I contacted staff regarding a personal immigration issue

Now I think I should not have and just move up my return date to the states by 16days.

It is to late because my organization is working on sending me the documents I need to extend my stay.

They are amazing people. Can't say that for the program staff.

Waiting for a phone call but as usually appointment time is on CPT or island time as is the nature of this program

This post was supposed to be career related so here it goes

Go to school-->get a degree-->Get a job - I did two of these three things. Now I struggle to get a job. I jump from one program to the next or one dead end job to the next. When will it end. I pray this program will be the last of its kind for me. Peace Corps, teach English abroad, NYSC those were plans I had in 2010 now in 2014 I need a career. Do I want one no but I recognize that I need to be self sufficient. My parents can't support me forever. Now I am in a program and I am barely making progress on my goal of articulating a clear career goal. Now I need to find a mentor. I don't know how a mentor can help me when I refuse to dig deep into myself and pull out what I want out of life. I have to create a portfolio. I have no idea where to start for the proposal. I got to content with being told what to do from years in school. I never looked passed the short term. Ok start college and graduate. I did not plan as a freshman for post graduation. I did not plan in high school for college. Maybe I choose the wrong college and major. I picked something for the sake of choosing. Some say what 17 year old knows what they want to do with the rest of their lives. Some do, the future doctors, lawyers teachers, social workers who all undergo years of additional training post college. Here I am 25 and still feeling directional less. Will this program guide me and give me direction on where to go from here. In week 3 I don't think so. The assignments are vague and I don't see a need to dig deep and produce concise, clear responses. I use bullet points. As I write this blog I wonder will I have grown in December when I write my final post in India and head home. Will I move to Nigeria and rely on family network to get a job to start a career after NYSC? Who knows and I must work to answer these questions as I ponder what do I want from a mentor and how can they help me. I may just end up doing what I always do and use the mentor to get the mentoring assignment completed meet with them for coffee chat about themselves while never really getting anything worthwile from it. I think it is time for me to grow up. I keep getting told I am an adult but I must have missed that memo that I am an adult at 25 or maybe I lost the memo at 21. Or is it 18 you are an adult according to US law since I've been older enough to join the armed forces these last almost 8 years.