I remember how it felt to lose you.
I had never felt more lonely. I felt a restraint on my heart.
No matter what, I hurt inside.
I was the embodiment of pain.
I was all girly about it, fought back the tears and just grunted at everyone's inquiry.
But the truth is I felt as if my heart were sucking me inward, a black hole had appeared in the center of my chest and all of me was being sucked inward. It was so strong. It was so constant.
I hated that constant desire to cry. I couldn't shake it off. I couldn't escape it.
And the worse thing is I knew I had caused it, it was my fault.

i just remember the time we promise each that no matter what happen u will still be my side even if i dont want u to, i cry for the memres i cry for the time i thought i had you...There is something that happens to me when I stare into your eyes, it's like this unknown force charges through me and causes me to smile. oh, how i miss you badly..

Nothing yet has really sunk in,it all looks exactly like it always did.

Pictures and presents hanging around my room.

An old movie stub from a movie we saw together on the desk.
Sometimes I think I can smell your perfume when I am driving alone.
I hate driving to places alone, I miss you next to me.
Sometimes I scan the crowd I'm in and see all the couples.
Empty chairs are my ideal partner these days.

but reality strikes me it was all my fault because i let you go, and now i want to take any chance to have you again.