I don't understand what am I feeling right now.. i should be happy.. This is what I want right?

It should have lessen the guilt.. But what the hell is going on with me? Seeing you that happy with her, my heart is aching.. Is this because my freaking pride has been crushed? For six months, you have found someone better than me.. You're doing things to her that you've never done for me.. Maybe I am right from the start.. You did not love me, you have never love me.. I guess this is really goodbye.. I wish you well.. God bless you!