Who Was It With?
My now best friend James
When Did You Realize It was Love?
When I started to get butterflies from him
What Did It Feel Like?
He made me feel so good inside. It was mostly over text, but love doesn't have a distance. Everything he said gave me butterflies. It was like walking on air, or being invincible. He was my summer love. It was just that feeling that you know that you've found the one.
What Happened Next?
He moved up near my friend Kaytie, so we hung out for a few days so that we could start a real relationship together. It really started to heat up when we were looking over the Devils Punchbowl, and we began to make out. I really, really liked him. And i saw him as being my boyfriend for a long time. But about a week later, he messaged me on facebook saying "Hi uhm listen, I really dont feel comfortable dating right now. I just moved here and I'm not ready. I think its better if we just remain friends". That message destroyed me inside. My entire world stopped spinning. My heart dropped. I cried for hours about it. I took it personally, i blamed it on myself. I was heart broken for about 2 months.
Lessons Learned
- My lesson learned was that don't hold on to something too tight, because you never know how fast you might loose it. Love is like soap. You think you have it, but then it slips away. I let myself get so caught up with him, that i lost it. Love isn't perfect, so don't expect everything to go as you planned. Dont ever let a boy get you down ladies! You're beautiful, don't ever forget that!
- Now that i think about it, maybe it is better that we remained friends. Because i really dont know what my life would be without my best friend, James ♥