I'm feeling so embarrassed right now. I don't think I've ever asked someone that I thought was semi interested in me for a kiss.

I think I may have misunderstood his intentions, I mean he had said the friend word a time or two but he was stroking my hair the last time so I thought, I guess i thought wrong, he didn't kiss me until I said that it didn't have to mean anything. I feel like such a loser right now.

I guess I just can't read men like I used to. I literally forced a guy to kiss me. It even tasted forced, like he was forced to kiss an aunt on the cheek. It's going to take awhile to get my self esteem back in gear, I just keep taking hits it seems.