If you've been fallowing my posts you know that i've tried. I finally thought I did it today, I thought I was done thinking about him and over it. I thought id lost all feeling and because of that I was actually sort of happy, but today I came home from work and saw I had a message and that it was from him. It said "Hey sorry ive been so busy ill try to get on more often love ya take care" and like an idiot I instantly fell hopelessly in love with him again and spoiled it all by sending a zillon messages as usual. Until now I havn't heard from him in months and i've been through some heavy s***! I'm not sure how to feel. I know how he is and sometimes it feels a lot like i'm playing with poison. Hes an amazing guy who's done absolutely nothing wrong, but it feels hopeless crushing on someone you will always be "just friends" with. --he never said it like that, but I know that's the way he is. Im just a little bit too young for him, there's the distance, and his love of romantic flings rather than relationships. *sigh*