Who Was It With?
my boyfriend
When Did You Realize It was Love?
I can't really pinpoint an exact moment but I'd say July 2010.
What Did It Feel Like?
Wow, what a question. In complete honesty, terrifying, completely and utterly terrifying.
When I was near him or would think of him my heart would pound in chest, I would shake, I couldn't speak properly I was so nervous but so comfortable and safe. I couldn't help smiling and laughing. I was so happy and so scared and so many more emotions, I had never felt so much before.
I kind of refused to admit it to myself, after all it had only been two months .
What Happened Next?
We danced. And at twelve the limo picked me and friends up to take us home. It was my "Cinderella moment" as I like to call it. my best friend came up to me and said it's time to go, and I did one of the scariest things I could have. I walked up to him and kissed him for the first time, then I whispered "I have to go" and left.
I live out of town so we talked a lot on msn, facebook and texted each other.
On one late night phone call, we asked questions about memories, family, likes and dislikes etc. He liked asking hard questions like who I imagine will be in my life in 10-20 years time. He said he's got something to tell him but that he can't, I asked him why and he said to protect himself. At this point my heart was pounding and my head was buzzing, I wanted for him to just spit out I love you, but he didn't. I told him he didn't have to tell me if he didn't want to. The next couple of days he hinted like saying I love you in dinosaur (roar/rawr) he didn't think I'd get it.
I remember being on the phone to him again and he asked a question about why I care for him more than anyone else. I kept saying because and you're worth it. Later he asked again and I thought he's already worked it out the cheeky git, I took a breath and said because I love you. He actually made me say it again and again. I could hear him smiling. That night he said he loves me too.
I couldn't be happier. I kept thinking, did he really just say it?
Many of these stories are about peoples ex's and heartbreak, but I'm proud and happy to say we're still together, I won't lie, it's not always easy there. We do hit bumps and bicker but it wouldn't be us if we didn't if kind of how we meant.
Lessons Learned
- You're more likely to find love when you're not looking for it.
- Be patient.
- Tell your family you have a boyfriend or well don't deny it, it makes it easier not lying about it and you'll be happier.
- Earn and gain trust.
- Learn as you go along.
- Get to know each other.
- Make each other laugh.
- I'm still learning but I hope that's helpful.