Who Was It With?
my best friend who is also my first love
When Did You Realize It was Love?
when I always dreamt of him and longing to be with him
What Did It Feel Like?
Like floating in the sky... and being mesmerized by his smile, I always got a butterfly in my stomach with his presence, funny to hear but I love to use FLAMES maybe all of you knows how to use it... F stands for FRIENDS, L for LOVE, A for ANGRY, M for MARRIAGE, E for ENGAGE and S stands for SWEET... I always want to see him and I love to receive his text messages and even if the message is not that important I will never delete it. Actually I have my sim card full of his text messages. I'm so sad if he is not texting me or I don't see him the whole day because I feel complete with him by my side.
What Happened Next?
He courts me but I refuse it. I told him that I want to focus only on my study so he said he'll wait, but deep inside I'm so happy that he feels the same. I want to tell him that I love him but I can't because my family told me that I must focus to my study first and they don't want to me to have a boyfriend. He's so caring and funny, he always makes me laugh. So my love for him goes deeper... times pass, I am ready to accept his love and I'm ready to disobey my family, but... it's too late... he came to me and said "I'm in love with someone else and I want you to meet her" so I did.. they became couple, and every time they are together I was hurt, I hide my feelings because of that girl... I saw the way his eyes spark every time she's there. I'm pretending that I'm happy for them... but deep inside I'm dying.... so I tried to move on... I thought it would be easy but I'm wrong...
Lessons Learned
- Don't hide your feelings.
- Nobody can wait forever cause forever was really never.
- Fight for your happiness.
- Don't let other rule over you, rather decide for your own but consider the opinions of others so you won't regret it....
- Don't let your PRIDE win over your HEART.
