Who Was It With? 

A.L.S.T.

When Did You Realize It was Love? 

mid 2007ish

What Did It Feel Like? 

Made me feel wanted, special. I'd had a gf before her who I thought I was in love with, but she moved away. When I got with ALT it felt so different and so much better. You feel like you're needed, like nothing, no matter what happens, can bring you down.

What Happened Next? 

We did everything together. For 2 years. Everything. We would text every morning and every evening. She'd be the first thing I'd think about every day and the last thing every night. For the first time I wasn't staring at other girls and thinking "I would," I was thinking, "I appreciate your beauty," then just compare her and she would mean nothing. Everything was perfect. Beyond perfect. We'd bitch about our friends. We knew everything about each other. Best friends, but more than that. It was everything I've ever wanted.

Eventually, due to "something" i ended it. We stayed friends and always vowed to get back together. even when she found out i had sumone else we still vowed to do it. Eventualy i think she got bored and moved on, and so did i to an extent. But when she told me she didnt love me or want me, i went into meltdown i was/am depressed. Im lonely. I cant hold down a relationship atall. And i compensate for my loss by having sex with as many people as i can.

Lessons Learned

• I don't think I've learnt anything. Maybe not to dump people that you know you have something amazing with. I don't know. Eventually, after your first love you'll get to a point where your missing her so much that even typing about it on a website makes you ball your eyes out. This girl was and is everything to me. And I mean when I say, eventually, when you realise how good something was after its gone you'd trade every single thing in the world to be with them for just one more hour.