I hate my life. It was clear.Dependency was there.Responsibilities were engulfing me.Perhaps I am coward but that was not only the problem.I had low income and my girlfriend wanted to break up with she having my 3 years old baby Sam.I want his custody anyway.The only thing I have at the moment.

I was being selfish at the moment.My girl friend also had one baby.She needed him too.Perhaps the better way would be to make up any how;but things were too messed up that I couldn't come up at any solution.

I also have no time to visit my son. Last time I met him was a year ago.Now  he might be able to call me papa,or no how does he even know me or word papa without me being there..