I never intended on falling for you.
But along the road of friendship on which we’ve taken
must have been some road sign I missed
because now I’m on a one way street,
not able to turn around to the time before I fell.
But I honestly don’t think I would ever want to make a U-turn if given the chance.
Sometimes I wonder what that “something” was about you
that made gravity pull me down so hard.
And every time my answer ends up being : everything,
from your imperfections to your adorable idiosyncrasies
that make me so utterly smitten by you.
Somedays I can rely on writing to let these feelings out.
On others days it isn’t enough and
it’s times like then when I feel awful.
When I know I have no chance with you.
When I feel the reasons why it’s called a crush.
But even if I can’t get you to fall on the concrete like I did,
and I mean that in the most affectionate way possible,
I wouldn’t want to stop the way I stupidly smile when I see your name and
I wouldn’t want to get rid of the aviary that appears in my stomach when I’m with you.
Maybe you’ll never know how I feel,
but if you do find out,
I’m sorry and please don’t turn this road into a dead end.
Know that I never planned on falling for you,
but god I wouldn’t want to go back to the time before I did
because for now I’m fully content with lying here alone on the concrete.
-L. L.
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