Who Was It With? 

William

When Did You Realize It was Love? 

This one day, we were talking and he confided in me

What Did It Feel Like? 

My mood was weird, before I realized that I loved him, I was really pissy and hot-headed. I had always liked him, but never like what I was feeling now.

What Happened Next? 

My best friend liked him too, and I told her on the bus to a field trip we were going on. She was cool about it at first, but it eventually led to a bit of a fight. However, we both got over it, and we managed to be friends while both liking him. The whole reason I fell in love was because we confided in and trusted each other; I felt like I could trust him with my feelings, because he often told me his.

However, that soon changed. This was towards the end of the school year, and when we came back for a new year everything started to change. The first month or two of the year was normal, we still trusted each other and our relationship was the same as it ever was. But right around November, everything started to go bad between us. We started fighting more, and it was right around January that all hell broke loose.

He was the most popular guy in our grade, and he was hanging out with bad friends (in my opinion). It started to go to his head, and he soon became a faint shadow of what he was before.

We started fighting over everything; we couldn't have a simple conversation without it ending badly. He started putting me down, calling me things like 'ugly' and a bitch. I had days where I really believed what he was saying; that's how much of an impact he had on me. In February, I told him that I liked him. I had already told him in November, but I guess it didn't sink in before. He verbally destroyed me. I remember coming home and crying for 20 minutes (it doesn't seem like a lot, but for me, I kinda cry intensely). I cried because he had said some things to my friend that he wouldn't say to my face, and she had to tell me.

In the middle of March, he moved to the northern part of the state, and it still broke my heart even though our relationship had sucked so much before. He's coming back on June 1st, and I'm so happy, even though he hurt me so badly. Life is just messed up sometimes, isn't it?

Lessons Learned

• Don't always assume that things are going to stay the same.
• If a guy is making you feel bad about yourself, just cut him off and try to get over him.
• Never believe negative things people tell you, you're beautiful in your own special way.