This is about my life. My only true love in this earth. Yeah, she is my only love. Notice that, i used she is, not she was... What does it mean??? It means i still love her and as far as i can think, i would continue to love her. Cause i don't have the strength to forget her.

 

Her name is D-----A   A---- Bina. I used that colon to hide her name as she is already married and leading a better life than before and i should not bother her. But still i miss her. She is the meaning of my life and she does mean a lot for my life.

 

You know, what, she was 1 and a half years older than me but we read in the same class. We really didn't chose each other. Rather it was a story and a huge drama behind these unusual relation between us. Actually we didn't have any serious relation or connection except some good moments like we were good friends. And now? Now what??? I don't know. I can't answer this question.

It was the Secondary School Certificate Exam, I really liked her and she was like a beautiful moon on which i wanted to sink and I got some connection when we were in the Intermediate second year. That day was amazing.

 

I can never forget her in my life. I may have to marry someone, may be lead a family with kids, but she will be reminded to me always. I never can forget. Even now, i can't choose any girl cause no one is alike to her. All are different to her. She was unique for her characteristics. She is so pure and also so polite. How can i describe her??? I don't know. Actually i hardly know the answers of this kind of questions and also in this kind of situations.

 

Now, she is in a family with her husband hopefully He will care her more than me. I always wanted to make her happy, now want that may God keep her smiling all the time cause her smiles are the best in this world at least I have ever seen.

 

She asked me for freedom and cut up the relation between us and i can't think that it was possible. She want freedom from me. She used to tell me, "Ami mukti chai tomar kase theke" . Now I am telling you the actual Freedom if anyone got, is me, myself got the ultimate freedom. You learned me a lot. You taught me so many ways and with the power of your teaching now i can realize the meaning of my life. So, thanks to my virtual teacher. I love you.

 

Yeah, that is a sentence, i have said to her for many times, but i only heard that for two times in my life in return from her. Once in Bangla and once in English. And i still want to say her love you and want to continue if forever. Now i am saying, "I Love YOU"

 

I tried to write I love you in the calculator window, but unfortunately i can't . So i write I hate you to her. But really really I still love you.

Thanks to everyone.