Good emotions are not good if they stay too long and, negative emotions don't stay too long even if we would like them to. Being doubted, hurt, made fun of, broken and hater is a common thing we all experienced. After all these negative things you've experienced, you are still standing. But the battle still continues in your mind. Don't bother yourself. You are still here, standing. Your courage speaks louder. I know for sure there is some pain and struggle you've endured in the past. Now, you are here. You are more than a conqueror. Your joy can't  be steal because you know nothing can keep you down. How do i know? You are still here. Don't give up. Love yourself first and continue to stand tall. You are more appreciated than you know.