Who Was It With?
Ashley. She was the first girl I had fallen head over heels for.
When Did You Realize It was Love?
When we first started talking, there was a click. You know, like fireworks.
What Did It Feel Like?
I remember how the very first day she called me, I was nervous. I had never felt so happy and relieved to be with a girl like her. She was so sweet, sensitive, understood me. She- at the time- was considering telling her parents that we were together. (She eventually did.) I felt like she cared about me more than anybody else could imagine. And it was true. Every feeling I had, and still have, for her is there. She made my life so wonderful. You know how they say that teenagers "can't know what love is"? Well, that's so false. I experienced it immediately when we first started talking.
What Happened Next?
The very first time we officially met was on her birthday. We'd already been dating for 3 months now and it was nerve wracking. It was a sleepover, with her-her friends- and me. Two friends, besides me, were there.
Dandra- Ashley's best friend- Didn't like me. I was a bit weird (I'm very weird and proud) but she knew how much Ashley liked me.
Leah- Ashley's older friend- Sort of liked me, but she was in more of the "get me out of here" mood.
So, the "night" started with going up to her room. Her room is huge compared to mine. She suggested playing spin the bottle- perfect way to get a first kiss? So I and Dandra agreed. Dandra was more curious at the time, (and I don't think she was actually Bisexual) but she joined in as the bottle spun on her and it was Ashes (her nickname) turn. I watched as they shared a kiss. Jealousy surged through me, as though I had lost all hope for the moment... Then it was my turn- and it spun on her. I was scared, my blood sugar went burserk and my face blushed.
"Here it is" I thought to myself as she moved her body closer to mine. "Our first kiss, get ready" and there it was, she locked lips with mine. "Kiss her back!" My mind shouted at me. So I did, I leaned into the kiss like I had practiced (Experience-Experimenting) and she kissed me back. Dandra of course said "Get a room you too!" and pushed us off one another.
After smiling at one another, I was definitely closer to her. We sat next to each other on her bed, and just talked.
After at least 30 minutes we went to the store, we walked. She took my hand and held it in hers. I never felt more safe in my life.
-Later that night-
We all decided to play rock band, her parents we home but in the other room, along with her little brother and sister. So, whenever we won (got a high score) I'd snag a quick kiss from her. (Amazing)
-morning-
We planned to go to the movies, to see Alice In Wonderland. She sat next to me and we were away from her friends. We held hands and she had her head on my shoulder. I felt like the perfect girlfriend.
After the movie, her dad had to drive all of us home, I living the farthest away. She walked up to the backdoor with me and she whispered in my ear "I love you"
-A week later-
She was texting me off my AIM since my phone broke earlier that week... She told me that she couldn't be with me. I was too heart broken to understand.
I made her call and tell me it, so she did. "We're over" and she hung up...
Lessons Learned
- Never get too attached to somebody
- If you fall -too fast- remember to bring yourself up and remind yourself of the consequences.
- Have a playlist set for a heartbreak. It helps.
- If you still love him or her after at least 6 to 10 months of the breakup, you know it was real. (Its real if it lasts more than a week)
- In the case of not being able to see your girl (or guy) come up with things to do when you can see each other?
- Make sure his or her friends don't mind you two together (they judge like crazy)
- Last but not least; When you fall in love, be happy about the moments you had, not about the hurt.
