Sorrow follows lashes
It cleverly hid the sadness and emptiness beneath conviction long and beautiful lashes, it does not want anyone to see that heart of it again, it will not allow it to live another mistake again.
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It has witnessed her mother's death throes. Dad go all day, she must do everything in the house, that day in the flickering electricity generation was revised electricity mother. After finishing breaker mother played back, try the fan still will not run, she turned the fans to watch, brushed her hand slipped into the wire, the mother twitched and fell out. At that time it was holding me, it was seeing his mother, he had screamed and shouted, the people fled to crowded, they do a lot of weird, someone pulled it into the neighbor's house because it was faint.
The next day the new dad back, Dad did not cry, Dad ma busy mom. After the funeral it only mother on the image to see the altar, and in dreams.
Where is Dad going to bring it goes well, I shall announce it over to her grandmother in the countryside far away, so it's new year met you once, but in recent years it is only spoken to on the phone that only. His father took a new wife and had children, dad did not sleep with it for a long time, probably also forgotten that night announced yet it also had nightmares, waking up every morning eye swollen but it also announced the other much lately. Some nights it awakens it jerked it scared him to see dad and aunt chamber and it saw no need to see things. Another thing to it frightening.
Aunt nor bad, but indifferent aunt with it too, had once heard aunt told her aunt's sister:
- Well, I've agreed to do two, sometimes of interest, but people misunderstand little fear death ... caster wheels let the shelves bones do whatever it likes. His father was not interested, I do notice you, huh?
And it is so increasingly it is more brazen and more taciturn or more mysterious, somehow it just like to do something for the father yelled at it, it is deliberately dishwasher for cups being broken, attend it every few days ruin or overthrow the inkwell pen notebook ... Then the time was still bored, initially announced last reminder, chided later on what was announced to hit it.
Dad knows where it wants to announce call it, asking, confide and hugs him. Dad asked her mother not remember? Ask it has not met the mother in the dream? There are still experiencing nightmares? There were friends teased for not staying with her aunt two? ... But not just have to hold me, baby aunt and father is the son and not as two sisters it ,. . People still make it beautiful aunt, rejuvenated know dimensional dad, you left out then.
How is it increasingly hates his brother, the other brother's position should be mine it, much as it is trying to hit him every time I look thanks aunt, therefore it's aunt reviews and tips published. so ever since it became an unruly spoiled child. Nobody realized it resembles his mother and strangely beautiful.
It changed because of her boy, he was the only person concerned about it, he went looking for it and ask why it kept dropping out. When it bored its suicide pill, It ran to her father's face and said: Daddy child suicide pill then. Announced it was going to leave it to the chamber holding her stomach in pain. He was not interested in it because it's not the first time it threatened to him like that. When it was drooling out and started snatching people up, he would have come and taken him to hospital.
At the hospital no one take care of it outside him, they undress it off, a catheter for it, it would not shy, but it was not fear death, it scared something? At that moment he was going to buy porridge on, he walked into the room while they had barely pulled the towel up for it, naturally it see face it heated up, he tried to hand to pull the towel but can not, mouth it is dry and it is not enough to say to the nurse call operation is bad hand, he went forward to pull the towel up and looked away.
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3 days after it announced its new show and aunt to hospital discharge procedures for it, aunt just grunted with his father in front of the doctor as to justify:
- I told you before, he had to take me, it is your child, you are a small child ...
- Im! Let it know that spares.
Discharge, it is hard to go to school more, it frequently to his motel room to ask him to lecture you. Far from his house, so he must Pensions school, he was class president and very handsome. From the start of the class it has to pay attention to him, but then he thought the kids do well never like to play with school children as its source. But it is not like to make friends with anyone. What on earth can anyone understand it anyway? Born father to dispose of it any more it is ...
It found between it and the friendliness he had strangely, he understood all its foreboding thought he was the only one dared interfere with it and weighing words for it. It did not go late, it has the first 10 points and it also starts more sociable with their peers. It also no longer quarrel with his father, aunt or bicker with hit me, a long time ago it did not live in such a fun atmosphere.
Nightly nightmares of it was replaced with pink dreams. In the dream there is a prince in his white horse as old tales tell mother, and the prince to welcome the princess was it, she wore a white skirt and pink clogs, he and she together entered the castle wedding ...
Birthdays it, it turned 16, so that 10 years ago it did not have a birthday, dad might not even remember it was born on that day, but no more. After completing his studies, he got up to about him told him to wait a bit. He was placed in front of it a little cake, lit the candle and said it blew out the candles and convention travel. It was incredibly emotional, pure water droplets sitting on it and falling eyelids cheek, she held hands with him and said happy birthday to him.
Countless happy moment it was hugging him, he was embarrassed and pushed it in front of his eyes and surprised ashamed of it. It told him that it did not want to go home, he saw something strained and disagreement over his eyes and face you. He was convinced it on but it was crying and begging him for it to stay, it really does not want to see published in today.
He did not agree to stay he said it would take him home. Putting it in the next lane, it told you about that night and when it rains, he had opened the door for it to. He brought it from clothing to replace sodden clothes on people. Something compelled him terribly, it did what it had seen and frightening. initially as it actively and somewhat like pressing him afterward that he was complicit with it. After that moment he felt anxiety and fear on his face you, it wore the wet clothes and left, he knew he still sat with confusion, anxiety and fear of him.
Today announced that it has been rated for a tattered battle for passing the night, and it did not want to go to school, it stays in bed with clothes and wet hair. It worried him, for sure he was shocked that yesterday, to make him mad it very much. it blame him why he was pressed to do so, but it did not understand why anymore. It was damaged daughter, without character, it is most afraid from now you will hate it and do not ask about it any more attention. it cried and slept until evening when his aunt called him up to go to work to eat, it knew that it fever coma from morning until now.
Three days after it has cured and go to school, it was called aunt, aunt thanks go buy drugs because it wants to go to school and meet him. Announced it has been nagging him:
- Go buy it do? so that it dies, it'd die very body which ...
Regardless, it ignored, it has no need to announce it any more attention to it, such action should be to realize that it had done so to conjure a little love left over from a father. Now it should be him, it wants to meet him.
- He has been absent three days now, yesterday announced he is to write a paper for school change for him then. we're sad, do not understand why so suddenly.
Know what this feeling is called? The extreme sadness, a disappointment or a heartbreaking pain? It did not know to call his emptiness is, no tears will fall only the inadequacy of remorse and that it was missing so much in that time. It wants him to apologize for that, it wants to tell him that he do not suffer, he never foul, it said. it was the wrong person. He never said a word of thanks to all the things he did for it, the changes he has brought to it.
It was class president, then it college, he became a passionate girl vivacious and dynamic ... It cleverly hid the sadness and emptiness beneath conviction long and beautiful lashes, it does not want anyone see its feelings again, it will not allow it to live another mistake again. It has welcomed me to live with her mother and instead should preserve what dad had to preserve its life. Smile!
