Whatever I do, I always feel like my efforts are all worthless and nobody in my family seems to notice how I feel towards everything. Sometimes I think of going to a far away place, with only my beloved daughter with me. I am fed up. I am tired of being the giver always, without them thinking of what I feel with their actions.

 

Right now, I am sure of myself that I am in deep trouble. For I know, that it's only when I am in a bad mood or in deep thought of something serious that I am able to write anything. Sometimes I need to feel bad with things for me to write what's in my mind I used to write short stories, poems, and anything of the same sort to express what I feel and to create an outlet to release my anger, my depression, and my emotions to avoid myself from being shattered into pieces.

 

The only person that gives hope and light to my dark thoughts is my one and only daughter. She is my life. She is my sunshine. She is my everything. And, she is the answer to all my prayers. I just can't help myself from thinking, what would happen to her if I am gone?

 

I know I shouldn't think of things like this but being a person with an advance thinking of everything and I always plan ahead of time, I just want everything to be settled for my daughter. I may not be in a suicidal state right now and that would never happen with my daughter beside me (of course, others may think that I may be feeling that way), but I just want to secure my child's future, with or without me.